Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Day 312: Apologized For Being A Bully As A Child
366 Random Acts was created as a way for me to set a positive example for my daughter and as a way for her to put others before herself. I want Isla to grow up as someone who lives by the Golden Rule and treats each and every person she meets in her life with the utmost love and respect. One of ways that I am going to best be able to raise Isla in this way is to look back through my own life, see mistakes I have made and teach her to avoid and learn from them.
As I've said on here before, I've always been pretty positive and good-natured, and that was true even going back to my childhood. However, after doing some pretty serious introspection, I realized that there were instances where I didn't act in a way that I want Isla to act. Maybe it had to do with my own insecurities or maybe it was my own (albeit terrible) way of dealing with the anger that I had from my parents divorcing, but in looking back at myself in elementary school, I was sometimes a verbal bully. I'd join in or even lead groups of people in lobbing insults and horrible nicknames at fellow classmates who weren't in my "clique" of friends. I was really Jekyll and Hyde because when I wasn't among a group of my peers, I would never think to act that way. My mom always raised me to treat others respectfully and looking back, it seems as though I let her down from time to time. Now I could chalk it up to youthful ignorance, but I know that I won't take that excuse from Isla when she is older. When I watch the news and I keep seeing story after story of these kids who turn to suicide from being bullied, I am thankful that my words never lead to that but am saddened that it even could have happened. I wanted to let the people that I tormented know that I was extremely sorry for the way that I acted. So today, for my random act of kindness, I apologized to them for being a bully as a child. If you or anyone that you know is affected by bullying (or is the bully themselves), please visit one of the following sites for help, advice, outlets to help.